As I sit on my bed holding Aria in her Urn, the tears flow. They are so heavy. This is all I have left of her. She is no longer here to...

Most days over the last 2 weeks I feel like I am back at day one. The only difference between then and now is I'm feeling more now. I...

Today I went to see the doctor. 2 issues, one was I am not coping and the other I'm not sleeping. Well I haven't slept properly since May...

Some days are harder than others..some days all I do is cry. I hate this. I have found my antidepressants help to get me through my 6 hrs...

Today has been very hard. Whilst at work (the other people I work with have no idea about this), I heard some ladies laughing and saying...

I am really not ok. Im so sad and down in the dumps. I really just want my Aria back. I watch her videos and I cry so much. It's all I...

I find every day hard. But, recently it's the normal day to day little things that are making me cry even more than ever. Like, I miss...

I find myself asking this a lot. Just why? Why my little girl? Why my Aria? Am I that horrible of a person. Why couldn't we have watched...

I am so fed up of being in this much pain every day. I just want my baby back. I want to see her and be with her. I look back at her...

I really don't know how much more of this pain I can take. It's like a lump in your throat, always there. Like you are so near yet you...

I wonder if this pain will ever ease? Will I be able to go a day without crying? It's been 14 months since my beautiful angel took her...

Today I feel like the world is against me. I just feel like nothing is getting better. Every day I am struggling and I don't know how to...

Oh how I wish things were different. I really wish Aria was still here. It eats me up that she isn't with me anymore. I will never...

I'm feeling more and more down about losing Aria the last few days. There is no reason to it, other than I miss her terribly. I sit in my...

I have my ups and downs days. Mostly down recently. Like the other morning. I woke up had my usual chat with Aria. Then went to the...

I feel I have been doing ok. But, the last few days. All I've done is cry. There is another little girl who's declining with dipg. But...

Each day is a living nightmare. That's the only way to describe it. How I'm trying to live each day without Aria. I don't think I am...

Just when I think I'm ok, bang it hits me again. Today I thought I was doing ok. I've been keeping myself busy. I went to support my...

It doesn't get any better it's actually getting worse. I should have a beautiful 5 year old here. A little girl who would be 6 this year....

The last few days have been very difficult. I've cried a lot. I'm replaying Arias last few days in my mind over and over again. It really...