This doesn't get any better 😭

Just been to the supermarket and had a massive panic attack..then had to sit in the car and just cry. It was horrible. I haven't had one of them for a long time. It was horrible. I just kept thinking of Aria and started to have a panic attack. I had to go to the car and cry. I hate this. When all you want is to be happy.

How can I carry on when I can't even go to the supermarket..it's been a year and it still feels like yesterday.

I just want my baby back. Everyone around are happy and are getting ready for Christmas, when I just want to curl up and forget about it all.