The end of 2024

As we all leave 2024 behind and enter 2025 things haven't changed much. The house is very quiet and I just try and and take one day at a time. It's very hard without Aria. I'm trying very hard to carry on without Aria being physically here. But, I know she is always with me and always in my heart. I hate not seeing her, hearing her and holding her. I know she is in a better place and she is free from DIPG. I wanted her to be a little girl. It would have been selfish for me to keep her here with me and her being so ill.

Since my antidepressants have been adjusted and put up to higher dose I have started to be ok. Well as ok as I can be. I'm not thinking and I'm not feeling 99% of the time. This is the only way I can cope at the moment. I need to be not feeling and not thinking.

I've seen a lot of children passing away over the last year. It's so hard to see and read about them. It just brings back everything that happened with Aria.

The highlight of the year is having a wonderful grandson. He is amazing..his mum, my daughter is absolutely amazing. I can honestly say without my children, husband and grandson I would be totally lost! There would be no point of me being here.

But, I am in a ok place at the moment. As ok as I can be. I cry still, but I carry on. For Aria, she managed to fight every day so I will.

So, I wish you all a Happy New Year. You can do this....Aria did. I am. Sending all my love 💜💜💜💜