Bye 2025....Here's to 2026

So that's another year gone. It's been a rollercoaster of a year. It's always difficult because Aria isn't here by my side. But what's ok is I'm another year closer to Aria.

When you are faced with grief you don't realise what you go through. Yes, you cry and try and live a normal life.....but nothing is normal.

Since losing Aria 3 years ago I have put on over 2 and a half stone in weight. So, in July I decided to losing some of the weight. I'm over 2 and a half stone in and I feel good. I am happy with the loss. I just wish things were different.

Today, I went to the doctor's and I found out that I have Shingles!! Really....this is all I need. Will things every go ok?

I have decided also I am not going ahead with my counselling. They can't offer EMDR, that's what I need. So, I will cancel all appointments going forward. It's a shame. But, I just need to look for better help. The help I need really, I can't afford to make do. I know that sounds harsh, but I've tried so many different counselling, I need to right one.

Well, I wish you all a happy new year. I hope 2026 brings you all you need and want.

I love you Aria Menai.....keep coming into my dreams....it's all I have at the moment.