Life is so cruel 😭

I just sit here and cry. I miss Aria every second of every day. I sit here and cry and cry. That's all I can say. I can't do or say much more. It hurts.

It's a pain which never goes away. It's always there. Like it's picking away at you. I sit here with Arias cardigan on me. I miss her. I needed her. She saved me. Now I am broken again. How can I carry on with this pain when I know I can never heal from it. It hurts.

It really hurts. I just need my baby back. Everyone keeps telling me I have my other children. But, this hurts so much. I try and be there for them all of the time. I think I hide how I feel from them. I need to protect them.

I just need Aria here with me 😭