Grief is horrendous 😭

People think grief is just a simple thing. That you miss the person. I think this is so wrong. There is so many grey areas.

Anxiety, insomnia, depression, so many different things. You remove yourself from everyone. You live alone and you don't want to be around anyone. You just one person, the person who's passed. It's hard to live each day.

You become a different person. A person you no longer recognise. You completely change.

It didn't matter how hard you try and live a "normal" life. It just doesn't happen. Even if I get asked. You ok? I just go,yes thank. But inside I am screaming. Nope I'm not ok. I don't want to be out here. I want to be home and safe. We're my daughter is.

A horrible feeling. Nothing can make it better. I hate being me now. I hate how I am. I've said this to my husband. But, there is no answer.

How can you live when my daughter has died?